omnium nostrum optimum conatus
I thought I could keep up with the artwork, blog and a “normal regular job” with an insane commute.
And homework
And chores.
And friends, family, life.
I have to leave the house by 5:45, earlier on the weekend schedule and I get home around 19:00.
If I had a car I’d have to live in it. Maybe one day I’ll get one again. Right now in the city it sucks to bus but I can’t afford my outrageous phone bill.
I drive on the internet these days. It even feels like a car running out of gas sometimes.
Yesterday showed me I am only so much woman.
I couldn’t come up with artwork. Nothing was working so by 5pm I gave up and just posted something.
Not all can be winners. I thought I had made enough in advance.
And I got 2.1k views on a short of the Coast Guard station.
Go figure.
I knew starting back at work again this blog, my animation, artwork would go on the shelf. I’m trying so hard to do it all.
I’m trying.
Tonight I want to see a band. I haven’t been out in a while.
