What to do

I wish I could find someone like Orlo who is local.

I want to be with him but the distance is so much.

It’s too much.

For the amount we have talked lately online I feel cut off. I just want him to play with me a bit not just play me for views. I don’t think he’s into me. We still aren’t getting each other’s texts. Maybe it’s God stepping in.

I know he loves me as a friend on some level. I know he’s going through alot. I still need hugs even virtual ones.

I kinda feel like this today 🤦

I’m so out of sorts I’m not even up to making AI porn.

Keep showing up. Keep showing up. Jesus got this even if I don’t.

It was a game and I was getting played