Loving life 💕

I’m so upset I can barely focus on work

Fuck Daniel and his friends.

I deserve better.

I don’t trust Clay. I trusted Sterling to a point.

I really thought I could trust Daniel.

After seeing Clay on my stream then seeing what he said on Orlo’s after I know I was sent up and it was a game.

He was laughing at me and I’m not supposed to think I was getting played?

Dan better get better wing men.

They were going through a dating site anyways.

I swear the pandemic pub is an incel support circle jerk.

They wanted their own pineapple show.

I feel for it.

Daniel never loved me, he loved the ratings and that’s even what Nicki said before I timed them out.

I will always love Orlo but we are toxic together, end of story. I wish things were different, he’s a beautiful man but it’s all a game to him and I deserve better.

Live and learn 🤷💔

Maybe that’s why I keep pulling up human trafficking videos. If I had gone to Pennsylvania would I have been safe?

None of my friends or family though so.

Last night proved it.

I hate admitting I was wrong but I was mislead.

Oh irony 🤷🤣

All I hear is circus music pic.twitter.com/roQokfGla3

— Alan Roberts (@TheMFingCOO) July 5, 2023

I deserve happiness and success and abundance

I didn’t deserve to be made fun of

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=x4IDM3ltTYo&feature=share

Thank you Joe. I’m still so upset over work. Thank you for picking me up.

And yes,I am taking time before I stream.

Plates and cups shouldn’t give me an emotional breakdown but my family broke me.

I’m not worthless. I’m not the piece of trash I’m considered to be.

But you don’t have a good childhood you are looked at as an easy victim.

I can’t help who my dad was. If my mom stayed with an abusive prick and I’m fucked up and she thinks I’m worthless, well, she helped make the monster I am today.

At least we all are finally honest as family.

I’ve told her and my sister they would rather I was dead than a family embarrassing situation.

Joe said she doesn’t feel like that but he doesn’t know my family.

I’d almost be better dead to them.